I spent the night in my Concubine’s arms,
dreaming of my Beloved.
My Concubine knows of my love for my Beloved
yet he hopes I shall give up on my Beloved.
My Beloved! who knows about my Concubine
for more often than not, He stands just right outside the door
while I go in with my Concubine.
Every time my Concubine goes away, I solely look into my Beloved’s eyes and I find all I thought my Concubine has and more! But when he comes back again, my gaze shifts! oh heart, so fickle!
His Love fills me with shame; how He looks at me with such love and tenderness in His eyes and calls me ‘Dearest’ and how He whispers into my heart “Despite your unfaithfulness, I still love you”! Oh Ishi!
How can you love this Gomer? When I remember how much my Beloved has spoken to me about my likeness for my Concubine, I’m filled with so much anguish at my disobedience and disregard for my Love.
Mio marito, how much more will You take?
As loving as You are, I know how just You are also
yet, I keep going back to my Concubine and He sees it all, You see it all.
Ishi! How much more can my Beloved take? How much more?
Talking to my Beloved is no longer the same for His love is so pure and mine has become tainted by the marks of my Concubine.
“I will cut my ties with him” I’ve said a zillion time.
my Beloved smiles and stretches forth His hand to help for every one of the zillion times
but Shame stops me every single time and I refuse Ishi’s help… Ishi who knows me completely and totally!
But now, I will don on the gift He gave to me the first time we met.
I will strip myself of my Shame and Guilt and even my Pride.
I will go to my Ishi! my Beloved, empty of my “self-proclaimed” essence and accept His help.
I will run to Him.
I will run to my true Love’s arms